# I Don't Know What A Sense Of Belonging Is

Or more correctly, I don't feel that I'm a part of any human group.
I can feel that I belong to a certain person or things like nature,
but I don't feel that for any human group.



I don't feel that I'm a part of my family. It's not like that I
hate my parents or something. It's more like, I don't feel that
it's a group. Since I don't have siblings, it just means my father
and mother. And I went to a boarding school and have lived seperately
since then. In addition to that, my father occasionally go various
countries for years for the work. It doesn't mean that I don't
visit my father though. It often has been that father, mother, and
me all live seperately.

Then there are my friends. But I don't think that it's a friend
"group". Especially after I became an adult, it has become hard to
meet them simultaneously because of the schedules.

Then I don't feel that I'm a part of my schools. Although I was
once even in a student council, I didn't feel a sense of belonging.
I just did what I should do and what I wanted.

Then since I hate work and I'm interested in early retirement &c.,
of course I don't have a sense of belonging to that.

Then I don't feel that I'm a part of the society. More correctly,
the system. Since it's not an actual close-knited society. I don't
participate (vote) in elections partially because of this.

Then I don't feel that I'm a part of the humanity. While I'm
technically a human, I don't feel that I belong to this grandeur
concept named "humanity". It's just you and me. I don't care about
the humanity at all.



So to what I feel a sense of belonging?

A certain person. It should be plural, but I mean each person. So
I feel it's wrong to write "people". I can be exceptionally loyal
depending on the person. Partially because I don't care about the
system and its rules at all.

Tradition. By saying "tradition", you should think of Greek mythology
& philosophy, Beethoven's music, &c. Somewhat classical. The timeless
things. Not customs. But those intersect a lot and I respect customs
in that case. And I don't think that it should be too old to be a
tradition. For example, I think arguably Unix philosophy could be
a tradition. I feel that I'm a part of certain traditions.

Nature. I feel that I belong to nature. I often feel that I'm
becoming one with nature. Also seasonality. Nature changes her
clothes and I myself follow that too.

God. I feel that I belong to god. Especially when I find logos
behind things.