# I Always Want People To Criticize Me

> What does not kill me makes me stronger.
>
> Friedrich Nietzsche, "Twilight of the Idols"


This might be a kind of self-harm, but I always want people to
criticize me to the death. If people don't do it, I do it myself.
I want to be in a constant state of debate. Since I can't get any
new information from compliments. Although I think compliments are
necessary to avoid commiting suicide, I often feel even vanitas
from them. There is no growth. I think I once read a similar thing
from Feyerabend.

Constant surpassing of contradictions. That's how dialectics works.
1, 2, 3 then voila! The philosopher's stone. It surely will lead
to the reunifying with the monad.