# I Always Want People To Criticize Me > What does not kill me makes me stronger. > > Friedrich Nietzsche, "Twilight of the Idols" This might be a kind of self-harm. But I always want people to criticize me to the death. If people don't do it, I do it myself. I want to be in a constant state of debate. Since I can't get any new information from compliments. Although I think compliments are necessary to avoid commiting suicide, I often feel even vanitas from them. There is no growth. I think I once read a similar thing from Feyerabend. Constant surpassing of contradictions. That's how dialectics works. 1, 2, 3 then voila! The philosopher's stone. It surely will lead to the reunifying with the monad.